She Ann‘s Diary - confinement month

  Remember on the 3rd day morning, Doc came in and checked both of us. When the doc sit the baby and the doc nearly failed to catch my baby. M so worry. The doc saw my expression and smile at me and told me that they doing this is because want to check on baby reaction. She say my baby is OK and M so glad to heard that. But the doc say I might need to stay for 1 more night. M so surprise and ask why. She say my heart beat bump faster than normal beat and scare I might have blood pressure or dengue. So I called my hubby and ask him don't bring any food cause it might because of the soup M having. Well, in the afternoon, the nurse came in and check 1 more time and my heart beat back to normal and I can discharge in the evening. I can't wait anymore, so I called my hubby to fetch me at 4plus and back to my mom house at Wangsa Maju. ^.^

 When M reached my mom house, I tried to feed my baby but same things, not much she can sucked and I started to feel frust. In the evening, my mother in law came and visit us and find that I don't have milk for my baby. She started to feel panic and feed my baby with plain water and mumbling non stop "aiyo, 可怜咯。 她很饿了". I started to blame myself and wanted to cry. My hubby went out and buy the formula milk. I keep telling myself that I cannot give up. Even though my hubby had buy the formula milk but I keep massage and pressing my breast hoping there are milk came out from my breast. U can feel the desperation I had. T.T

She Ann's Diary- At hospital

  I plan to write this blog after awhile coz I found out that my baby change everyday and yeah she did give me a hard way sometime. So I tot of writting this to let other mother to know their baby as well. Hope this help. ^.^
 
  On the 1st day, she sleep the whole day and never want to suck my nipple. I'm so worry that she might have any problem. So I called the nurse and asked her advice. She used a needle "stick" the toe and tell me not to worry cause her sugar level was good, just like adult. But I never give up and try to let her suck no matter how sleepy was she.

  On the 2nd day, same thing... sleep whole day and sometime will cry a bit. So I quickly let her sucked. Yah, she suck but not even 5 second, she stop already. I try to massage my breast and press it as hard as I can to get the milk. M so desperate when only saw 2 drops out from my nipple and I saw other mother was feeding their baby and their baby seem like enjoying sucking. Again, I ask for help. The nurse press and squeeze my nipple and there another 2 drops. The nurse smile and say "Noh... ada susu. Jangan bimbang. Mesti bagi bayi hisap, tahu?" Then she walk away. M not satisfied with the answer, then I call for other nurse. She ask me to buy a "fake nipple", maybe because of my nipple not long enough that why my baby don't suck. So I ask my hubby to buy from pharmacy and try it out. Well she suck very hard till I feel pained and never give up, I let her suck. When she stop sucking, I can feel sharp pain.

My Baby She Ann

This photo was taken on the 2day of birth. M so glad to see her, I mean in a healthy physical. I just can't believe it when m holding her on the 1st day after birth. M so touch and in my mind it's all bout her future. I keep telling myself must give her all the best and educate her well so tat she always in positive.

A lot of my friend will ask me "How does it feel?"... Well... It just like u having constipation for a month and u must force it out.... and there, they are curious and ask me "Does it really came out when U giving birth?"... Frankly, yes. I cannot hold it just because it come out cause I need to force my baby out from there also... So my friends who going to give birth, never hold it even thou u feel it coming out if not U won able to force ur baby out... ^.^